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[ Dash thinks about all this in silence for a little while, letting Sungmin touch him and simply enjoying his presence. His hand keeps moving as well, wandering lightly over Sungmin's shirt.

In some ways, Dash really is truly patient. What Sungmin says about giving himself time doesn't feel difficult to him. He thinks that with good people by his side, with Sungmin there, he can make it. ]

I have time, don't I? [ he muses, finally breaking the silence. ] I shouldn't take that for granted.

Maybe it'll take awhile to tell my story, but that's okay. [ Here, he nods slowly, like he's still thinking. ]

Am I seeing you, Sungmin? [ Dash asks, voice soft. ] I feel like I'm reaching for you.

You have time to decide how you want to handle things and what way you'll turn to things. [ sungmin responded with a tiny nod of his head, keeping up the movement of his hand. ] I feel like I'm still trying to figure out who I am on the ground and - I want to be different than I was in the sea.

[ a pause as his mind started drifting along a lot of different thoughts. ] I don't think you would have liked me then. If you knew the sea me. I wasn't - this.

[ it took so much trial and error, growth and trying to forgive himself. the latter still being a work in progress. ] You - do see me. You can always reach for me, Dash. We can work on compiling that information tomorrow. You have access to more details, right?

I see you now. That's what matters, Sungmin. Who we are to each other, right now. Ever since we've met, it's felt right, hasn't it?

[ He lets his forefinger trail over Sungmin's cheek, his nose, his other cheek. ] It's impossible not to see you, I think. You're beautiful.

[ But he's going to have to close his eyes soon, because he's so sleepy. ]

Can I hold you? If I reach for you, is it okay if I hold on for tonight? [ Now he's not making perfect sense, because he's starting to drift a little, no matter how much he wants to stay here, present with Sungmin. ]

[ who they were in the moment mattered a lot and sungmin knew he needed to let go of the past more and forgive himself for what he had been. even if he hadn't known any other way, he never wanted to use it as an excuse to justify all the shipwrecks and deaths he attributed to.

moving in closer to dash's body, sungmin gave a nod of his head. ] Yes, you can hold me, I'd - like that. [ he couldn't remember the last time anyone held him, probably back in the sea dozens or so years ago. it shouldn't have impacted so much and yet it did. ] You can hold me anytime you want and I see you, Dashy. I see all of you.

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